So since I returned home, I have been thrown with constant reminders of my ex and my past life. Its hard facing everyone I practically pushed away while dating my ex. I regret so many things and choices I made during my two year relationship, so I am trying to cope with the outcomes of those choices and trying to pick myself back up and move forward with my life, which I must say is NOT easy one bit. I am sure many of you out there reading this are either in my position, have been in my position, or choose to forget the position I'm in. I wish I could say there is some magical cure to get over someone you truly and deeply love, but so far I have come to find out the only cure is TIME, which is my least favorite word these days.
I have had some pretty amazing people walk into my life since then, people that I can truly call my friends, My one friend L, is pretty much the most amazing girl you will ever meet, she has the biggest heart of anyone I know and no matter what time of the day it is she will listen to me rant through BBM about practically everything and anything!
My other friend K, has been there through it all, she left class to comfort me the day of the breakup and has never left my side since. She makes sure I eat and sleep and has watched me bawl my eyes out for hours on end just listening to everything I feel. She has been there for me since the beginning and I will always respect her for that. She has been there to pick me up when I am hysterical and make sure that I am not doing anything I will regret the next day. She was the brave friend who deleted his number from my phone and cut off all communication with him. Which to this day, I thank her for because without that I would be nowhere.
My other amazing friend B, has been the one person I can truly go to for anything. I have known her since I first moved to Phoenix and she has always been someone I look up to, even though I will only admit that on this blog never in person ha. She inspired me to write this blog and again I love her for that. She unfortunately is being put through a similar situation, yet she is so much stronger and mature than I will ever be about it. She always told me to think positive and forget the people who don't treasure you for who you are. Hearing that from someone who I can call my friend made me feel so much better about everything.
The many other friends who have been there for me through everything you know who you are and I love you all for being the greatest friends I could ever ask for. Thank you for being there for me no matter what.
I will admit there are days when it hurts more than I can ever explain, but at the end of the day life is not easy and it never ceases to amaze me. Being 19 I have so many more years to enjoy and while I miss my old life, I know that the future holds so much positive for me I am trying to focus on that more than anything. Remember, we get our heartbroken numerous amounts of time before we find the one that holds our hearts forever.
Until next time.... Live Stylishly.
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